overwhelmed... very... excited yet lost...

after a family discussion; for the whole night, i have not been myself. the news affects my whole being. i hope yet i am afraid. somewhat of a dilemma. but, things are working out?? i didn't think it would be so soon, its shocking! i didn't think i would come to a stage like this. ultimately, all into the Hands of God... that leaves me without any worries...

-LeB-

Eason Chan's Concert 2008!

I just came back from Eason Chan's concert, I have to say that the $140 paid was all worth it. The concert was terrific! Great vocals Eason has... I admit, I am envious! Wahahha... However, I felt that the music could have been better, with more variety. The sound system at the indoor stadium was really good and that aid in Eason sounding AWESOME. The bottom line is... it was a really good performance by Eason Chan. We could see the effort put into the concert also :) Through the concert, I feel like perfecting Cantonese, I just love the language... or should I say, the dialect...


My concert buddies for the day, with our Magnum each :)

*many things in life do not just come our way. we've got to fight for it and earn it.

-LeB-

Medical Checkups...

By now some of you would know that I might and most probably would be undergoing an operation some time soon. There are many procedures to be done before going for the operation, and I suppose it is quite a major op. How coincidental it is when there are so many reports and talk about the legalisation of the sale of kidneys and right here I am just about to donate my kidney. For those who didn't know, it is a kidney transplant that I would be doing. I am the donor not the recipient. In all things, I am going to commit it onto the Lord. :)

Today I went for another check up and it was a CT scan on my kidneys. At these check ups, I realised that I am surrendering myself to the nurses and doctors, leaving it up to them to do whatever they have to, without even knowing what they are going to do!!! Just like today, I thought it would be some scan that didn't require any injections or painful treatments. Not that injections are all that painful, but, I would cringe at them. I always feel like laughing when being poked, its the painful-ticklish feeling. So as I was saying, I had to endure unexpected poking and injections today. The nurse poked a HUGE needle into my BIG BIG vein (they always comment that I have a very big vein and ask if thats usually the vein they use... the answer is YES!). Poking the needle and taking it out right away would be fine, but no, the needle was left there for the rest of the check up... probably 30mins? It just felt so... TICKLISH... wahahha! Apart from the poking, I had 2 injections, the first was water and the other was some liquid that would enable the doctor to see what was happening inside my body, ie. how does liquid flow in my body. Although I have obsolutely no idea why the nurse injected water into me, it felt weird. Just through a vein, the whole tube of water went missing and into my body. I could feel the sensation in my arm and flowing into my chest area. The other liquid was worst. I could feel the sensation throughout my whole body and it made me feel like... URINATING! Good thing I didn't wet the bed? Oops...

This is what the stuck needle in my arm looks like...

Huge needle 0n my arm...

*dreaming of my dream...*

-LeB-

Convocation!

I attended a convocation on tuesday. It was my very very good friend's convocation, dearest Jasmine Ng. :) I should have attended 2 convos by now but I've only attended one. Apologies goes out to Whitney Wong, so sorry I forgot about it. Still, I am very happy for them both and Xuan who has graduated from NIE as well :) First it was the A'levels and now, its uni, I am so proud of all of you! 2 more years for Jiarong, 2 more years for myself and 3 more years for Kelvin. Press on!

Although I was really excited for my close friends who have graduated, I no longer feel the urge of wanting to be there, wanting to be like everyone else, wearing the convocation gown and graduating from a local uni. When I was in secondary school, my primary aim was to get into a junior college, it didn't really matter which junior college, all I knew was that I wanted to be in that system. And in JC, I just wanted to get into uni, preferably a local uni. I used to roam NUS or NTU at times when I was in JC, when I visited friends or my elder brother. Back then, it seemed like a goal and something that I really wanted to reach. On tuesday when I travelled 1 and a half hours into NTU, I no longer feel that its a place where I would like to be. Looking at the students having their orientation and students in their convo gowns, everything seemed so foreign. I thought how would my day of convocation be. There wasn't even a sense of excitement. Yet I thought... My thoughts and feelings would be so much more different if I were to graduate from... BERKLEE?? Wahahah... There and then I was back into my dream land. For now, it might be a dream, but who knows, dreams do come true.

School is starting in 2 months time. I am so not looking forward to it. My focus has changed. Probably tremendously...

Happy pics below!


Congrats Jasmine! Offically into the work force and earning big bucks!


Woohoo~!~! I look so happy!


My turn with the bookworm hat :)

*cough cough* we had lunch with someone that day as well. same initials as Kelvin Ching... Lets call him Mr. KC. I have a rather good impression of him :) :) :) Jasmine... HINT HINT!

-LeB-

relaxing place...

Just came back from supper. I had Carls' Junior for supper. Does that seem too much? Well, I really had that. Went to the outlet at Big Splash where its opened for 24hrs. Its a really nice place. Great ambience, fresh air, comfy seats... :) The outlet is a building standing on its own and it reminds me of the States where many restaurants or cafes have the same layout. I love it! Great place to check out. Carls' Junior has good food too... I hope we would go back there again. Simon and Minhui are my supper gang now. I hope I am not a light bulb though. I'll dim my lights... Wahaha...

Sometimes we are not able to see how we really are. Things are different from someone else's perspective :) Time to have MUCH MORE patience...

In the pursuit of music...

-LeB-

the calling??

i had a meeting with my bosses today. yeah, the directors of echomusic. sounds big doesn't it? but it was a casual and easy-going meeting that was really fruitful :) once again I thank God for His blessings, for bestowing upon me this responsibility as a music educator.

we had a meeting to discuss about the school's syllabus and it dawned upon me that we are very blessed with really talented, passionate and knowledgable teachers. coming this november, i would have been teaching music for 3 yrs. i have improved along the way and i am very encouraged that i have students who have followed me for close to 2yrs. it really is very encouraging. i am often striving to do my utmost for the interest of my students :) i guess its a passion afterall. i would not want to stop at my abilities but to continue improving and learning so as to further impart greater knowledge to my students. thats what i really hope to do.

striving for the best...

-LeB-

trapped in the past...

i feel i can't move on. 'cause... i still like the songs of yesterday. yes, i like oldies... they exudesome kind of attraction that hooks my emotions. but of late, i heard a very good singer in the mando-pop industry. introducing Crowd Lu. yes, thats his English name. in chinese, known as "lu guang zhong". anyway interested in listening to mando-pop, do take note of this new singer. very unique in still, very acoustic, unplugged, very fresh. i am happy with my buy :)



Do all creative people need to look "different"?? Maybe I should try...

-LeB-

Monday Blues?? NOT!!!

Finally! The weekend is over! Woohoo~!~! My life is so topsy-turvy... While people look forward so weekends and dread Mondays, I look forward to Mondays... Mondays mark the end of the weekend and the beginning of a new week. As usual, both saturday and sunday this week was packed! Very packed... But its over now :) Time to take some rest and do my own stuff! Its time for my cello and probably take some time to exercise...

Something that I really look forward to these days is my Cello. Yeah, my new instrument :) I feel that I have improved and made progress! And my teacher commented the same thing :) I've been performing quite regularly, playing the keyboard for the past 3 weeks. I am looking forward to the day where I can actually perform on my Cello :) Goody!

Time for some rest :) And hopefully a VERY fruitful week ahead!

-LeB-

of Gigs and Performances...

I just came back from our 2nd performance at White Tangerine Cafe, Kovan. It was our 1st official slot at the cafe. We didn't sing well neither did I play well. There's so much room for improvements. Minhui said that I have grown up, and that is a big compliment for me. Thanks :) My thoughts? I am still improving and trying my very best at every gig/performance. And I thank God for where I am thus far. I haven't gone a very long way, but I've been blessed with opportunities and people around me who actually believe in me. When a lot of times, I do not even believe in myself. Thanks a lot. We are FAMILY! :)

Each week ought to be better... Keep improving! :)

-LeB-

Sakamoto Ryuichi - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence (Live)

This piece of music is totally amazing! I heard the piece sometime back, enjoyed it, but didn't really think it was this good... After hearing it again, I love many aspects of the song. The melody, the simplicity in it, the emotions, the instrumentation! Piano! Cello! and Violin! Perfect! It would be a dream to one day work with a set up like this :) Enjoy the piece of music :) It is really emotive... Film music is rather good, and the Japanese are really creative...

Huh?!?!?!?!?!?

I can't believe that they actually used those pics. I look so so so "HANDSOME". Take a look at my retro hair. Worst hair day of all time...

www.instantglamour.com

-LeB-

the process...

I just thought I'm going to emerge stronger. I am not going to admit defeat. Life is about trying... and improving... Just got to do it harder and tougher...

-LeB-

Busy Bee...

Finally, I can take a breather. The last few days were crazily packed, I hardly could do anything I wanted. 2 performances during the weekend, 1 jamming session today on top of worship practice and teaching. I had to learn quite a number of songs, and my "learning power" is slow :( Both performances were so NOT GOOD. I better buck up. Thank God Echomusic still got the performing deal at White Tangerine Cafe @ Kovan. I should be performing quite regularly there now. Feel free to come down and lend some support! Haha...

I am now back home and I can finally bow a few notes on my Cello. Honestly, seriously, I miss my Cello... I am in love with it and its sound :) So nice. And I really enjoyed my Cello lesson last Friday. Although the lessons are only 30mins each time and we aren't playing anything fanciful, I feel so blessed to be learning something I've wanted for sometime :) I think my Cello teacher is a nice person too, the main thing, he is patient... I do hope I can achieve something on the instrument.

I hope it'll be a fruitful and relaxing day tomorrow...

-LeB-